Gravestone

She makes me lick the gravestone after 
tongue trace letters taste of owned 
and under and all of them ask

why do you return 
to hands that 
interlock around 
my throat 
Only let me 
breathe when 
my eyes roll back 

Tells me she knows me better than the sea sky 
air and all of them 
say they love me but she's the one on her knees 
hers the promise written in skin and teeth 
my blood on her chin 
wrist deep in say my name and 
no one's getting out of her alive 

Her fist encounters skin and I am who I was made to be 
million pieces shatter spiral glass break into 
she splinters me and I say thank you 
I am docile like the duvet underneath 
I am quiet like the good girl good girl 

Her blood in my veins and no escaping now 
Breathe her drink her in and always always 
I am here and her unravelling undone and bundled up turned over face down
split apart and formed from her wet clay 
wet mud in her mouth as she bites down hard and
I'm still bleeding but she fucks me again
needs me to come like a corpse 
half gone and half the judder cry of 
you're mine you're mine 
as the lights fade 

when I wake up she's above me mother bird mother monster red cock red hands 
lick the tears from my cheek drink my sweat from the fabric
suck the milk from me unending 
teeth and claws rake 
I am nameless I am full of her to the brim 
overflowing spilled everywhere 
still her fingers clutch and pinching

tells me to say thank you moves my lips
Licking my teeth ventriloquist 
this is what you came for 
taste of her 
taste of what she made me drink 
taste of grateful broken undone lick the rim after
taste her afterwards
wake up days later still full of
wake up startled with it running hot down my chin 
wake up knowing I am undone belonging 
I am stuck still drowning 
clenched in her fist 

Face against the gravestone made me promise
her hers forever only her tongue in my ear 
her only only blood red blood words 
come for me say thank you tell me what you are undone and begging
come for me only mine now 
when you only me and mine and only my blood red and feeding open wide undone and always  
you're mine you're mine 
as the lights fade.